Carmz

my thoughts, my dreams, my life

Another hurdle to jump.. Mayo 18, 2008

Filed under: filipino,life,pinoy,ramblings — carmzy @ 1:27 umaga

Hello once again. I can’t believe it’s been 5 months since I last wrote. I’ve been busy getting settled in this town of ours. It hasn’t been an easy transition. And now, another hurdle to jump.

It seems like I’ve been jumping hurdles all my life. Siguro some of you feel this way also. Just when you think you’re doing the right things (finally), everything falls apart. Para bang minsan walang tigil ang problema sa buhay.

I ask myself sometimes, pinaparusahan ba ko? Ganun ba karaming kasalanan ang nagawa ko na walang tigil kong pinagbabayaran? I know, medyo melodramatic hehe. Pero I can’t help but think this way sometimes. Paano ba naman, katatapos lang ng isang problema..ayan may naghihintay na naman.

Pero ganun nga ata ang buhay, full of trials/hurdles that we have to overcome to get to the finish line. It’s His way of building our character. Kaya when i’m doing this self-pity skit, I just remind myself..’huyyy you are much better off than half of the people in this world’.

I begin to count my blessings, each and every one of them. After all, He will not put me through these if I will not prevail. He knows me best. Nangyayari ang mga ‘to para maging mas matatag ako, gaano man kasakit o kahirap minsan and pinagdaraanan ko.

Kaya ko ‘to!

 

C’est la vie Disyembre 7, 2007

Filed under: filipino,life,personal,random thoughts,taglish — carmzy @ 6:45 hapon

 “Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible.” — Jane Rubietta (rom Quiet Places)

It’s been a while since I last blogged. Almost a month, based on my archives. Ang daming gumugulo sa isip ko. Could it be because of the holiday season? Di ko alam. This has been a rough year for me.

I’ve gone through things in my life that were firsts for me. And they have affected me a great deal. Pero dapat bang magmukmok ako? Hindi rin. We all go through trials in our lives. I just hope I will be strong and wise enough to tackle those challenges.

That’s life after all. Hindi pwedeng puro saya na lang. Dahil kung puro saya, paano mo malalaman ang difference between joy and pain? And there have been painful moments this year. It made me appreciate the things I used to take for granted.

Pero minsan I still can’t help but feel down. Tao lang naman ako. Masakit mang isipin pero marami rin akong pagkakamaling nagawa sa buhay ko. I just hope na natuto na ako and not repeat history.

It’s time to pick up the pieces and move on. I need to quit dwelling on the past and move on. Ika nga ni Leann Rimes “Life goes on.” And finally, sabi ni Ol’ Blue Eyes “That’s life.” (“,)

 

Pagkaing Pinoy Oktubre 25, 2007

Filed under: filipino,food,photos,pinoy,ramblings — carmzy @ 6:36 hapon

Nakakamiss talaga ang pagkaing Pinoy. Lalo na kung nasa ibang bansa ka gaya ko. Kaya tuwing magkakaroon ako ng pagkakataong magluto, putaheng Pinoy agad. Hindi na ata maalis sa dugo ko ang pagiging mapagmahal sa Pinoy food. Gaya na lang ng ulam namin mamayang gabi. Nagluto ako ng mechadong baka at piniritong dalagang bukid. Hindi man ako napakasarap magluto gaya ng iba, may lasa rin naman ang luto ko hehehe. Kapag isda naman kasi ang niluluto, lalo na at prito- huwag lang sunog ayos na!  Ikaw ano ulam nyo mamaya?

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Mukha ba silang masarap? Sana nga masarap. Sayang naman ang paghihirap ko para lang makakain ng malinamnam na Pinoy food hehehe. Halika kain tayo!